In other news...
A new friend of mine has made it very clear she is an outgoing extrovert with the mouth of a sailor and the mind of a "man." She is continuously talking about how she wants to have sex, she misses getting rough with a man, she needs that feeling of a man's body on top of hers to really relax. However, I've come to learn it's just a front. And I think it's so interesting to watch the way she speaks and the manner in which she composes herself when we're with a group of people, and then to turn around and see the way she behaves with me and our other friend in one of our respective rooms. She is just one example of behavior that I see a LOT in our generation. Why? Why do we insist on giving ourselves these personas, why are we unhappy with the way we naturally are? And if we do want to change ourselves, why don't we simple change ourselves, why do we shield our actual personalities with these "super personas," just to still be the same person we're scared of showing other people underneath? And on top of that, aren't we just making it that much harder to find someone who will really love us? Are we expecting prospective lovers to accept us AND our personas? Are they like our shadows--it's a packaged deal, it's all or nothing? It seems to me that it takes more energy to be two people than it does to be one. And why do we need to put ourselves on one end of the spectrum or the other? I've found that these "personas" are typically radical, extreme, out of control, outspoken, loud, etc. and they're worn by people who are the opposite of those things. Why can't you be a quiet, meek person who sometimes gets crazy? Why can't you be an outgoing kid who sometimes keeps to yourself and has a night in? I'm definitely guilty of this too. Is it because of the people we surround ourselves with? Do our close friends and the traits of theirs that we envy make us feel inadequate?
