Get ready for the showdown.

Wow, let's see. School is school. I'm 89% sure I'm heading to Irvine in the fall, which is exciting and scary and insane and amazing. It actually really scares me, but I just need to get out of here. I'm done with the Bay Area. I'm officially moved in with Karsyn, and things are going well on that front. It feels really good to be able to be so independent. You're never really prepared for it, you just have to do it, I suppose. I'm transferring to a store out in Dublin, so my life is officially here in the valley. I miss my parents a lot, but I know they're doing well. It's going to be really weird when they're all settled in Oceanside. The weird thing about all the changes in my life, is that I can FEEL myself growing up. Like, I can pinpoint specific thoughts that go through my head and say, "I didn't used to think like this. I didn't used to care about things like this." Super strange. I guess the biggest news is that Jesse and I broke up. I know I talked all that shit about how I wanted to be in a relationship and I wanted someone and I was sick of being lonely, but Jesse was too much of all of that. We dated for a total of two and a half months, and VERY early on, I felt like I was married. He was trying to force himself into myself, and me into his. I mean, we both made mistakes and I'm certainly in no position to point fingers, but the point of all of this is that I've realized how important it is to NOT jump into relationships. It's vital to get to know someone before decided to date them seriously. And I know I'm guilty of getting excited about a boy and getting sucked into the idea and not seeing reality. Epiphanies come at different times to different people, and this one came late to me, but at least it came. I've been hardcore on a health kick lately, like seriously though. I'm sick of making excuses for myself and I'm sick of settling. In all aspects of my life. :)

In other news

RENT opened this weekend. It did really well actually. We got an extension for another weekend. Go us. I mean, I have a lot of opinions about the show and what is currently going on and what SHOULD be going on, but I'm proud of my cast and I think a lot of people are going to enjoy the show. It's definitely not Broadway, but I think Jonathan Larson can rest assured that we have honored his work. So if you wanna come check it out, performances are at Las Positas College every weekend of April. Obviously, Friday and Saturday nights at 8, Sunday afternoons at 2pm And that's all for now folks. ;)