Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

2010 is here, and I'm ready to face it head on. Although I do love my life and the person I am, I'm ready for new experiences and adventures. I'm ready for all the life-changing events that will be happening this year. But, I'm most ready for new relationships. I want...no, I NEED, just one relationship to be easy. And when I say easy, I don't mean easy. I mean, I need to meet someone who isn't an idiot, who isn't "unsure" of what he wants, who doesn't "need to get his priorities in order." I don't want to have to play all those games. i always think that my standards are too high, that if I had reasonable expectations, I wouldn't be single. But, in all actuality, I don't ask for much. I just want to be treated the way I should be treated. I want to be more than your good time. I want to meet someone who is willing to give it a try, who is willing to take a chance, who is willing to love like he's never felt heartbreak. I am so optimistic about love. Despite EVERYTHING. So, why is it so hard to meet someone who has the same attitude? Who is just WILLING. This year, I just need someone willing.

I have said recently I don't want to date until I transfer schools. It's not that I don't want to date, I just want to let it be. I want to let whatever will happen happen. What I mean is, I don't want to worry about dating. I don't want to frivolously worry about inconsequential boys. I don't want to deal with all the drama of boys who don't know how to deal. And maybe part of that is my fault, I need to learn how to filter out the bad ones. But until I have that gift, I don't want to go out of my way looking for love. That's how they get us. It's like the lion preying on the vulnerable. Sometimes I feel that my optimism about love is really masking my naivety. But that's not true either. I have learned a lot about relationships in the past, say, 5 years. I know I'm an amazing partner. I know I can make someone really happy. I just need someone to be willing. Someone who wants to see what happens, who doesn't just wanna hook up when it's convenient for them, who will really put in the effort. It's not like I need a husband. I just need someone who knows how to not be a douche.