Grey gardens.

Hey, at least I got one post up in February. I guess I just haven't really been inspired lately. My life has returned to its most comfortable place: a whirlwind of work, school, rehearsal, and no time in between for anything else. RENT is coming along, although it's been a bumpy road, to say the least. I just want to open. And, as much as I hate to say this, I want the show to be over. I absolutely think it's possible to over-rehearse, and we've been working the show since January. I'm just ready to perform. Work is usual, but I've got a new found love for it. It's a constant kind of thing, I always know what to expect when I go to work. I guess my eyes have really been opened to how hard this depression has been on everyone around me, and being in RENT, with its poverty-stricken characters, I've come to appreciate the fact that I even have a job. Today, I worked 3 extra hours at another store because they needed coverage. A year ago, hell 2 months ago, I would have said "Sorry!" I'm just glad I have a way to pay the bills. Speaking of bills, I signed my first lease yesterday. I'm moving out on March 13th. I know, right? Scary. My parents are moving to San Diego because my dad got a new job. Typing about this is a LOT easier than talking about it, because every time I talk about it, I burst into tears. I knew this year was gonna be big for me. I'm turning 21, I'll be done with Ohlone, I'm really beginning my life. But, all of this is so soon. And it's all at the same time. I won't have my parents here to run back to when times get hard. I won't have that comfort of being back in my childhood home. My parents, the familiarity of my own street, knowing the back roads of my city, my entire childhood will be gone come May. And it's really sad to think about. I guess everyone gets pushed out of the bird's nest to see if they can fly. And now's the time. It's really time to grow up.